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Thursday, July 16, 2009
Pangkor-Second Part
don't mind my finger, I was fumbling for the camera at this time
This is the Lumut town and we took this in front of the bazaar which is facing the beach
Where was I? Oh, ya..that afternoon, we arrived at the Swiss Garden Apartment. It was a nice studio room apartment for two. Although the facilities were not in their best condition, considering the fact that it was free of charge, I wouldn't mind at all.
The FOC room
After some much need rest, we went out at 530 pm to cycle to the beach.
Turns out the most anticipated byclycle ride was a fuckin disaster. the bike was a disaster itself. My brakes were gripping to hard on the front tyre that it makes cycling up the hill a tortorous task.
This was taken at the lookout point within the resort
But the breath taking view of the beach soothed the annoyance of the whole event.
Serene.
Solitude.
Content.
Havent felt all of that in one time for quite some time now..often times, we forget how small we actually are in this world. we are like grains of sand compared to the grandeur and splendor of the world.
Oh well.. catch you later..
don't mind my finger, I was fumbling for the camera at this time
This is the Lumut town and we took this in front of the bazaar which is facing the beachWhere was I? Oh, ya..that afternoon, we arrived at the Swiss Garden Apartment. It was a nice studio room apartment for two. Although the facilities were not in their best condition, considering the fact that it was free of charge, I wouldn't mind at all.
The FOC roomAfter some much need rest, we went out at 530 pm to cycle to the beach.
Turns out the most anticipated byclycle ride was a fuckin disaster. the bike was a disaster itself. My brakes were gripping to hard on the front tyre that it makes cycling up the hill a tortorous task.
This was taken at the lookout point within the resortBut the breath taking view of the beach soothed the annoyance of the whole event.
Serene.
Solitude.
Content.
Havent felt all of that in one time for quite some time now..often times, we forget how small we actually are in this world. we are like grains of sand compared to the grandeur and splendor of the world.
Oh well.. catch you later..
1:27 PM
; how can i tell you ?
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Pangkor- before dawn comes (Part one)
It is 7! I thought we were suppose to wake up at 6 and leave at 7! Oh well, getting enough sleep is a much needed luxury, especially if you are constantly deprived of it.
After a painstakingly expensive RM4 nasik lemak breakfast with Lynn, Hana-ney and Azy, all of us grrls started our journey with an excitement that is quite hard to explain. It is like excitement and worries all concocted together. excited coz i cant wait to snorkel but, a bit worried because of the expenses (mind you, i am jobless now).
We started our journey at around 930 that morning and by 1100 we made our first pit stop to piss somewhere in Sekinchan. It was at Petronas Station.
I know I wasn't paranoid when i told Hana that most of the people were staring at us when we took our picture at the first pit stop. We were barely hard to miss. We were in our full tourist gear. flip flops, nice pair of sunnies and summer dress!
Oh ya, I forgot to mention. I had the H1N1 scare at first. I got this really bad sore throat and my temperature was higher than usual. but i gotta thank Lynn for buying me those strepsils. Kills the pain!
1200
By twelve, we had cross the border and made it to Perak. Lumut, Perak to be the exact. We were in the midst of endless sea of paddy fields. Honestly speaking, this was my first direct encounter with a paddy field and how paddy actually looks like close-up. Its not that I'm soo fuckin urban or anything..its just that I live in Miri..
Oh well..gotta go now..will update on the jouney a bit later..
To be continued....
It is 7! I thought we were suppose to wake up at 6 and leave at 7! Oh well, getting enough sleep is a much needed luxury, especially if you are constantly deprived of it.
After a painstakingly expensive RM4 nasik lemak breakfast with Lynn, Hana-ney and Azy, all of us grrls started our journey with an excitement that is quite hard to explain. It is like excitement and worries all concocted together. excited coz i cant wait to snorkel but, a bit worried because of the expenses (mind you, i am jobless now).
We started our journey at around 930 that morning and by 1100 we made our first pit stop to piss somewhere in Sekinchan. It was at Petronas Station.
I know I wasn't paranoid when i told Hana that most of the people were staring at us when we took our picture at the first pit stop. We were barely hard to miss. We were in our full tourist gear. flip flops, nice pair of sunnies and summer dress!
Oh ya, I forgot to mention. I had the H1N1 scare at first. I got this really bad sore throat and my temperature was higher than usual. but i gotta thank Lynn for buying me those strepsils. Kills the pain!
1200
By twelve, we had cross the border and made it to Perak. Lumut, Perak to be the exact. We were in the midst of endless sea of paddy fields. Honestly speaking, this was my first direct encounter with a paddy field and how paddy actually looks like close-up. Its not that I'm soo fuckin urban or anything..its just that I live in Miri..
Oh well..gotta go now..will update on the jouney a bit later..
To be continued....
8:49 PM
; how can i tell you ?
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Ever notice how life can be soo..out of control..
Well, a good advise would be..just enjoy the show
2:25 PM
; how can i tell you ?
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
Of death and choice...
Death is inevitable. Jobless is very unlikely the case. it is simply a matter of choice. Decisions you make in your life, that soo could ultimately change the course and patterns of how your life was before that.
Then, come the part where exasperation takes over. Things did not turn our how you you predicted it to be. You are not a prophet anyway. Not even close to Rasmus.
In the end, it becomes an ordeal just to pass thru one day. Nasi lemak 2ringgit will soon be your daily stapple. And you will find yourself constantly writing and updating your blog since you have nothing to do anyway.
Defiance always triumph? Yes. But does have its own consequence. You might be free of an ever pervading reign, but a battle always comes with a cause. In my case, it is being jobless. and you know all to well, being jobless means your savings are shrinking even as we speak. Pretty soon i will be on a famine plight if I don't find myself a sustaining source of income.
This choice.This ' I choose to quit because I hate my fuckin job'-choice, is something incredulous, yet it is a real as it can get. I have been happily waking up and looking up to a new day each day for the past 2 weeks. i know what I am getting myself into. I don't want to end up in my cubicle one day, wondering what it would have been, if i took the road less taken and stick to the comfortable pothole-less road. Perhaps I will end up lamenting and writing something similar to Robert Frost'.
After all, we humans are random and spontaneous.We are like a chaos theory. Like gas atoms. And yeah, I'm still young. And this road less traveled perhaps could be the biggest turn of my life..Perhaps..
Untill then, I will keep updating this 'journey of the jobless' blog....
Death is inevitable. Jobless is very unlikely the case. it is simply a matter of choice. Decisions you make in your life, that soo could ultimately change the course and patterns of how your life was before that.
Then, come the part where exasperation takes over. Things did not turn our how you you predicted it to be. You are not a prophet anyway. Not even close to Rasmus.
In the end, it becomes an ordeal just to pass thru one day. Nasi lemak 2ringgit will soon be your daily stapple. And you will find yourself constantly writing and updating your blog since you have nothing to do anyway.
Defiance always triumph? Yes. But does have its own consequence. You might be free of an ever pervading reign, but a battle always comes with a cause. In my case, it is being jobless. and you know all to well, being jobless means your savings are shrinking even as we speak. Pretty soon i will be on a famine plight if I don't find myself a sustaining source of income.
This choice.This ' I choose to quit because I hate my fuckin job'-choice, is something incredulous, yet it is a real as it can get. I have been happily waking up and looking up to a new day each day for the past 2 weeks. i know what I am getting myself into. I don't want to end up in my cubicle one day, wondering what it would have been, if i took the road less taken and stick to the comfortable pothole-less road. Perhaps I will end up lamenting and writing something similar to Robert Frost'.
After all, we humans are random and spontaneous.We are like a chaos theory. Like gas atoms. And yeah, I'm still young. And this road less traveled perhaps could be the biggest turn of my life..Perhaps..
Untill then, I will keep updating this 'journey of the jobless' blog....
12:26 PM
; how can i tell you ?
Monday, May 04, 2009
I am like a lonely roadtrip
Counting on electric poles and roadkills
Cruising down this beaten path of tar
Made from the sweat of the people
This silence is solace
Yet deafening at times
This heart of void
Filled with images of reverse development
Beaten and pleasing
Lost paradise in the outskirts
Deep within
I found me
5:52 PM
; how can i tell you ?
Monday, April 20, 2009
Just you wait
This reflection of incompetence
Will not fade with time
But with determination
These shadows of uncertainty
Wont be blown away by the wind
But with the light of bravery
This fear of solidarity
Will not go away
Unless you can stand on your own
This doubtful sense
Will fester in you
Until you start believing
This stale air
Will suffocate you
Unless you start breathing
And this darkness
Will haunt you
Until you overcome your fear
Let your spirit mitigate you
Let your soul colour you
Let love give you strength
Radical action!
This reflection of incompetence
Will not fade with time
But with determination
These shadows of uncertainty
Wont be blown away by the wind
But with the light of bravery
This fear of solidarity
Will not go away
Unless you can stand on your own
This doubtful sense
Will fester in you
Until you start believing
This stale air
Will suffocate you
Unless you start breathing
And this darkness
Will haunt you
Until you overcome your fear
Let your spirit mitigate you
Let your soul colour you
Let love give you strength
Radical action!
11:08 AM
; how can i tell you ?
Why soo blue?!
Does it match your hue?
Deluging emotions
And sadness secretions
Does it come in colours
or tablet or doses?
Gritting teeth and shouting fuck you
Does anger suits the red hue?
Synaptic flashes
Or raging hormones
Blatant pounding of heartbeat
Streaming blood and heart rate
Yellow like daisies
mellow and lazy
its nice to fell warm and cosy
under the sun i feel so rosy
Black is cool and anarchy
Punk rock and bbq party
Purple and pink
So fun and sweet but still feeling like a junk
Green and mean?
Peacefull and content and not soo mean
change your lightbulb
dont sit in the tub
rainbows of life
that is my life
Does it match your hue?
Deluging emotions
And sadness secretions
Does it come in colours
or tablet or doses?
Gritting teeth and shouting fuck you
Does anger suits the red hue?
Synaptic flashes
Or raging hormones
Blatant pounding of heartbeat
Streaming blood and heart rate
Yellow like daisies
mellow and lazy
its nice to fell warm and cosy
under the sun i feel so rosy
Black is cool and anarchy
Punk rock and bbq party
Purple and pink
So fun and sweet but still feeling like a junk
Green and mean?
Peacefull and content and not soo mean
change your lightbulb
dont sit in the tub
rainbows of life
that is my life
10:50 AM
; how can i tell you ?